The Awakening

I feel like I have awakened from a long dark night.  And I am shocked!
I do not like what I have outwardly become while a storm- clouds thick and dark-raged within…

Self loathing
Self pity
Self condemnation
Want to creep in

All the demons doing their father’s work…
Lie. Lie. Lie.

I have been in a long dark night season of the soul.
I did not hold fast to the Lord’s instructions.

I wanted to let go of God.

I did not….
Even though I wavered…HE DID NOT.
Over the last months, I have been dealing with the re-righting of my body’s chemistry.
Thyroid, adrenal, insulin, serotonin, estrogen/progesterone
An Integrative Health Specialist has been helping me re-balance my body’s internal workings…and I have made steps toward bringing balance to my body outwardly by watching my diet, getting back to exercising and proper rest….not too much, nor too little.
Together with Bible Study, scripture memory and setting healthy boundaries in relationships, I have a more positive and hopeful outlook.
This past weekend at a conference I heard the Lord say,  “It is time to RESTART. Be careful to obey all the commands/instructions I have given you. Obedience is your strength.”
I learned, truly, He has set His love upon me and has tethered Himself to me in a binding love that will not let go. 
I NEEDED those words.  While I know –intellectually- that God loves me, it has been quite some time since I FELT His affectionate love, His intimate love for me.

He demonstrated His lavish love toward me this past weekend and it was balm to this sojourners drought riddled soul. He washed me in His love and grace and affection…and I receive.  I receive.

How He loves us, so.
How He loves us.
How He loves us, so.

So with that reminder and because of His great love…

I am not, nor will I be consumed
(Lamentations 3:22)
His banner over me is
(Song of Solomon 2:4)

I will press on toward the mark of the high calling.
(Philippians 3:14)
I am a daughter of the KING and I will walk, talk and respond appropriately
(Psalm 45:11)

I will continue to walk and strive toward obedience
To do what I have been instructed
and even if the results are not evident to my eyes…

I will serve the Lord with my whole heart.  I will sing and make music to the Lord.
(Judges 5:3)

I will wait on the Lord; I SHALL mount up on wings as eagles-
Over the valley of the shadow-
I will run this race marked out for me
And not grow weary.

I shall walk this walk of faith
And not faint…even when I feel faint…I SHALL NOT.

Because the Lord gives strength to the weary.
AND increases the power of the weak.
(Isaiah 40:29-31, Philippians 3:12, Psalm 23)

When Depression, Self-Loathing, Self-condemnation advance against me to devour my flesh,
When my enemies- Lies and Deception, Fear and Insecurity- attack me
They will stumble and fall
(Psalm 27:1-3)

Though you, Lord, have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again!
You will increase my honor and comfort me once again!
And my lips will shout for joy!

I, whom YOU have
(Psalm 71:20-24)

The Word. Worship. Prayer.
These are my ROOTS.

Health and Wellness

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This morning @  Walk and Worship, our devotional thoughts included the following scriptures...

Psalm 40:3
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD

Psalm 63:5
My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

Psalm 32:8
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him

Psalm 66:17
I cried out to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue

James 3
6 The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be

The MOUTH. The TONGUE.  Two parts of the body that can get us unto some trouble! Eating too much.  Eating unhealthy foods.  Unhealthy speech.  Discouraging comments to others...

Taming the Tongue:  not always easy, but most neccessary if we are to build up the church and bring honor and glory to God. 

Walk & Worship
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The Word. Worship. Prayer.
These are my ROOTS.

Health and Wellness

Walk & Worship*
For Health and Wellness
Join me as we seek to LIVE WELL while we are LIVING! 

Saturday July 16 @ 8:00 am
Cost $5 or two canned goods
to support Woodmont United Care
Info:  De Anna Morris

*Walk and Worship is inspired by The Daniel Plan of Saddleback Community Church
in California.  You may check out The Daniel Plan at online or find them on Facebook and Twitter. 

The Word. Worship. Prayer.
These are my roots.